Answers Come When We Act
Apparently being accountable at night is hard. I'll keep trying, though.
Yesterday was more of the same. Most of my promptings were to smile, speak to people, graciously and humbly accept others' generosity, and to stay focused on my goals for the day.
Once again, I worked on smiling. A girl came up to me (probably 12 years old) and said, "I wanted to tell you that you are always smiling and it makes me feel happy." I doubt my smiles made her feel as happy as she made me feel with her words.
I was pretty tired toward the end of the day (as usual) and almost started my coping mechanism: Facebook. It is perfect. It requires no brain power and can occupy me for hours. But, I hate it. I don't usually know what else to do when my body says it is done, though. As soon as I opened Facebook, though, the promptings started. They were all things I could do while resting. Because I responded immediately, more came. I loved it, honestly. I can't always be productive when I'm at that point, but I could yesterday and the One Who Gives Promptings knew that. I'm sure He will also help me know what to do when my body and my brain are both done. We will see.
I told Doug about a symptom I have been experiencing for 6 months or a year. It had scared me enough that I had never told anyone. But, for some reason, I told him yesterday. I guess this blog is devoted to those "for some reasons." Anyway, oddly, as I was praying before bed, I had the distinct impression that I should look up the symptom and see if it was connected to Lyme. It had never occurred to me that it might be. Sure, enough. It is! I was pretty sure I had cancer, so finding out it is unlikely to be cancer, but just a side effect of my battle that I already know about, was a relief beyond words. But I thought it was interesting that after all of this time with this particular symptom, I had never had the prompting to look that up. The prompting didn't come until I acted on the prompting (which I didn't recognize was a prompting) to tell Doug about it.
Yesterday was more of the same. Most of my promptings were to smile, speak to people, graciously and humbly accept others' generosity, and to stay focused on my goals for the day.
Once again, I worked on smiling. A girl came up to me (probably 12 years old) and said, "I wanted to tell you that you are always smiling and it makes me feel happy." I doubt my smiles made her feel as happy as she made me feel with her words.
I was pretty tired toward the end of the day (as usual) and almost started my coping mechanism: Facebook. It is perfect. It requires no brain power and can occupy me for hours. But, I hate it. I don't usually know what else to do when my body says it is done, though. As soon as I opened Facebook, though, the promptings started. They were all things I could do while resting. Because I responded immediately, more came. I loved it, honestly. I can't always be productive when I'm at that point, but I could yesterday and the One Who Gives Promptings knew that. I'm sure He will also help me know what to do when my body and my brain are both done. We will see.
I told Doug about a symptom I have been experiencing for 6 months or a year. It had scared me enough that I had never told anyone. But, for some reason, I told him yesterday. I guess this blog is devoted to those "for some reasons." Anyway, oddly, as I was praying before bed, I had the distinct impression that I should look up the symptom and see if it was connected to Lyme. It had never occurred to me that it might be. Sure, enough. It is! I was pretty sure I had cancer, so finding out it is unlikely to be cancer, but just a side effect of my battle that I already know about, was a relief beyond words. But I thought it was interesting that after all of this time with this particular symptom, I had never had the prompting to look that up. The prompting didn't come until I acted on the prompting (which I didn't recognize was a prompting) to tell Doug about it.
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